October 2009
23 posts
The best i ever had
I’m sorry that i couldn’t stay to fill your empty spaces, i know it’s selfish. those promises, i broke them all. those words, they used to filled with hope and love are empty now. those dreams we had together, they’re all ruined by me. i sincerely am sorry that all these have to end. i swear, you’re the best i ever had and you’ll always be. thanks for being...
HOLIDAY FUCKING GOOD SHIT!
What would you do lei?
what would you do when things dont go your way and it feels like the world is gng against you? what would you do when you feel tired of doing something but you just cant stop n youve to carry on with it? what would you do when everyone in the world claims that they understand how you feel but actually they dont really give a fuck about you, they dont understand a single shit n they just say okay...
Baby i’m sorry we don’t have much time to spend together now but even if i’m miles away from you, you still have my heart. I can’t wait to see you tomorrow. Baby even if i’m all beat and worn out i still want to see you. I luvvv you so so much sweetheart! Fast post, gotta go! <3
1st month
1 month ago, i’m clinged to you. it’s impossible to live without you. 170909 i started loving you and it’s not going to stop. this will never end.
raiyan, i love you :)
i just feel like crying
argh
make up screwed
i needa dye my hair get a hair cut buy new make up buy more clothes shoes and bags wanna do more henna do facial look for prom dresses and heels wanna go many places wanna sell my clothes away flea flea flea i finally have all the time now holiday is here im free like a bird but why am i still feeling lazy
Like only a woman can - Brian McFadden
I wasnt perfect Ive done a lot of stupid things Still no angel I wasnt looking for forgiveness Wasnt laid out by my pride Shocked by her attention And someone signed me up for love I didnt want it And now I cant live without it She changed my life She cleaned me up She found my heart Like only a woman can She pulls me up When she knows Im sad She knows her man Like only a woman can Shes kind of...
confessions.
i’m lousy and i made stupid mistakes. i wasn’t asking for forgiveness but i was praying for someone who can accept my past and i. i’m don’t feel disgrace for what happened cause’ i knew life goes on. you’re the prayers God answered. you stepped in my life, darkness, loneliness, sadness, all stepped out. when life’s at it’s lowest point, you made it...
You can fuck my friends.
Somehow i felt that things aren’t the same any more. my friends, those who used to be close with me, no longer are. some made better friends, some literally forgot about me or some can’t be bothered at all. i miss the o’good times, when everyone just met, especially during the june holiday. what happened now? times when i thought those who’ll be there when i needed them ,...
cheebai… i miss raiyan lei knnz why everytime like that one >=(
FOR YOU.
Putri, i know you pathetically need some attention and here you go. i honestly am sorry that i’ve to say this but you started it first. the fucking 1st time i see your fucked up face, i already detest you, so so much but i just kept them to myself and among my girls. i don’t even have any intensions to say anything offensive to you, y’know? because i respect. i don’t really...
I hate everyone >=,(
Gave school a missed cause’ i’m tired, i’m lazy and i’m pretty sure i’ll be sleeping during free lessons so decided to skip. i’m finding school pointless now i might as well study at home. gonna start on history and math in awhile. exams are just 3 days away! god bless me very much ok!
September 2009
52 posts
Down side
When’s the last time i feel something like this? i was drowning in happiness and now i feel cheap again. i should’ve know good things will always come to an end and people will never stay perfectly together for ever. i don’t know what i’m thinking right now i can’t explain how i’m feeling. i just know that i’ve so much to say and now it’s all stuck...
Studying is so depressing i needa fucking holiday! i needa go on diet as well, before prom i’ve got so many things i wanna do. first i needa STOP eating so much junk food from now on. then when i’m thinner, tanning is a compulsory thing! and dye my fucked up half-shaved hair (which i totally literally h8). i needa do some facial as well and one more thing after exams. i needa get back...
fuck this fucking fucked fuck.
fucked up history is making me fucking sleepy even thou i slept for more than fucking 10 hrs last night. fuck it and i can’t stop fucking eating. this’s fucking making me fucking fat. i really feel like sleeping right nanana and fuck n lvls. fuck history the most cause i can’t fucking get a single shit into my head and i’m fucking studying so fucking hard and none is...
I’ll stay in and study the fuck outta me for this weekend and the next one as well till Ns are over. can’t believe i’m left with 7 days to prepare myself for exams and not to mention i’m only 14 days away from holiday and fuckkkk this is so good, enjoy the fuck outta me! OK STUDY TIMEEEEEE. i miss raiyan :(
I stayed back after school as what i promised in the previous post. but it wasn’t as productive z_z all right, tomorrow will be better (haha). today raiyan stayed back with me and it was good but just that even if he did nothing but most of the time he’s distracting me from studying. with him around i just don’t feel like studying anymore (thou the fact is w/o him around...
So now i’m finally calmed. my sis just pissed the fuck outta me and i can’t wait to give her knuckle sandwiches and knock her down when she’s back (I WILL). anyway my prelim results are out and ohyesss i officially screwed my prelims, not to mention my future will be ruined eventually. i’m really really really not ready for n lvls yeeeeet. time is running out but i’m...
23/09/09 is one of the worst day, definitely a bad day and h8 today effing much. i lao sai-ed more than 4 times this morning, forgot to bring my allowance to sch, quarreled with sis, mom is in hospital now, ate too much, stomach aching again. awesome today is fucking fucked.
Raiyan
It’s 10:07PM. its strange cause normally i’ll be asleep by now but i just got this sudden urge to blog about life now. i dint know life can be this good and i really really feel completed now. there’s so many good things happening recently and i can’t name it all! first is raiyan. there’s too many things i wanna say about him. how much happiness he brought to me. now...
Still can’t believe i decided to stay at home on a saturday, didn’t know i’m this lazy. i’m pretty sure everyone’s going to supper tonight to party so yeah, promised not to club till exams over so preventing myself from getting tempted i’ll just stay at home. hahaha promise is a promise! still can’t accept the fact that i can’t see raiyan till tues,...
“So breathe in so deep. Breathe me in, i’m yours to keep.”
24 hrs a day is like for ever not enough lei….
Bee n ana came to my place today. ana tao pok-ed bee and i today she enjoyed but i suffocating ah her breast compressing on my face i cannot breathe haha. i love bee n ana fillet o fish me hee hee. anyway i was taking a nap this noon n i dreamt about us dating at night safari. hahahaha so cute. i’ve got so many places i wanna go after n lvl. i wanna conquer all the museums in spore n blog...
Haze is getting worst these days. i really think people shld stop burning things etc to pollute the world. the weather is really a killer. everyone shld learn to be more considerate. anyway went holland to get some frolicks with bee ana des ren gene brad and raiyan. we shld all start studying as in really silent mode and study not just books on the table pens in hands and start talking. haha...